Childish Emotions

As an adult

Sometimes I feel childish emotions.

They get blamed on peri-menopause, of course.

Lately, I feel as though I’m being shunned by someone, and I honestly don’t know why. Since I have created this as my safe space to share emotions, I shall share.

My friend seems to be having a hard time at the moment. I understand needing time away or time for yourself. I never want them to feel alone, so I keep reaching out. And I keep getting either no response, or the briefest-bare-minimum type of response. The type of response you’d give an annoying co-worker or child.

I’m deeply confused by this as I thought we were close.

I thought we were extremely close until they posted something recently about their life and the hierarchy of importance of friends.

I was hurt! It still hurts!

I’ve tried giving them the benefit of the doubt and continue to reach out, only one every couple of days. Just enough to show I still care, but not enough (hopefully) to be a burden.

I continue to receive no response, even though I see them active on social media.

I feel like at this point, I may need to just back away. Let go.

It’s hard though. We used to brainstorm ideas together any time either of us had a problem. And now… we don’t. We hardly communicate at all.

My heart hurts.

Does anyone have any advice or maybe a similar story to share?

Shoutout to my friend and fellow homesteader Morning Coffee with Magena Heart for introducing me to Substack and suggesting I use the platform as an outlet for my emotions and writing.